WOW…

It’s not something that everyone expect from me to write at the first entry for my blog.

My internet since last night ’till this mornig is really sucks and I am so pissed off with it!

But now, it’s OK, I am also. I think my moody is depends on something to make it change. This is what you called extrinsic motivation. Depending too much on my environment and ‘rewards’ that I might get if do some stuff or not doing it. Internet makes me happy because I have something to do rather than doing nothing. Boringness can kill me!

I received a few news that shocked me, but I kinda expect it from that person. Something that might scared people away from him. Just like him, I also facing the same stuff, and you dunno how hard it is to deal with it. It is part of life where we need to make decision on something that WILL decide what we are tomorrow. I wish him a very good luck in choosing his life’s pathway and hope he make the wisest decision so that he never regret anything. I did try to contact him, but I guess he is just being himself, full of ego and closure to others.

There are also things that come up to my mind today (internet took long time to repair which makes me think lot longer than usual) which I think I need to stand on my own mind and tell people that ‘This is my decision about it!’. Without have to struggle the lie and the excuses anymore. At some point, I like attentions, but too much of it, NO NO! I guess, I need to stand up for what I believe in and if there’s someone that is not agree of me, FO!

I have no specialty like other blogger whom blog for their trips (not now, I am such a broke student) or teaching people how to do photoshops (like KCD), what I love is: pour out what I have in my lil’ tiny head.

Next blog will be better than this and it’s going to be something fruitful.

‘Till next bloggie…

P/s-17 days to go

(Jube 2nd, 2009)