Hush Hush...

YAY! Finally I got a job.
This is such an excited experience for me.
I never had an experience working at ANY stores/where before.
So, looking for a job based on no working experience before make it hard for me.
BUT, finally I manage to find one which is suitable for me: Hush Puppies.
First, I kinda scared to work.
I don't even do much work back home.
There, I need to follow orders and rules.
Listen to the supervisor and seniors.
Luckily, they are all good people but nosy people.
I've been asked some weird questions 30 minutes after I started.
What a people….
Other than that, they are helping me a lot how to find the right shoes at the right shelf.
As a trainee, I haven't familiar how to find the shoes as quick as I can. But I am coping.
Today (July 11th,2009) is the second day I'm working.
I am thinking to work for some time there.
I tried to find a good reason why do I want to work.
Hmm…
Maybe I want to keep busy and not thinking too much about stuff.
Maybe I wanna be tired so that I can sleep at night and don't have to take those pills anymore.
Maybe for the sake of trying.
Maybe wanna get an extra money for shopping and living.
Maybe I wanna prove to some people that I can stand on my own feet: pay for my own food, ticket, clothes, books, etc.

At the other side of the world, there is someone that is dear to my heart who looking a job.
And I know how important he got a job at this time of year.
I believe that he'll find what he's looking for.

So far, life is being a lil' bit hell here.
Fighting over the changing of the course.
Until today, I haven't heard anything about the letter yet.
But now I am working on to get a support from a few lecturers that I know thru social contact.
I hope it'll help me to change.

Yesterday, I got an email from a lecturer whom his class I've been following this semester.
He said, I am 50-50 student for his class and its up to me whether I want o stay or not.
He did mentioned about my English and my grammar when I am writing the article/news, how it's gonna get an average grade at the end of the course.
I know that my grammar is not perfect but I am here to make it better and I am not easily to let down.
I want to do it and I'll carry on with it.
Now, what I can do is to study the language harder than anyone else in the class.
I am expecting to be corrected in a hard way in the class by the lecturer.
Because he did warn me about it and I have to agree with it to be in the class and to not make a mistakes anymore in the future.

Now, what I need to do is to stay sane, patient, calm, wise, and having faith in what I do.
Thanks to Him for giving me such a good family and friends around me that always be there with me in my sleepless night and when I am the lowest valley of my disappointments.
They are the one that said to me, 'You'll be OK and everything is going to be all right''.
May His blessing be upon ya'll.

2nd day….