Lately

Here I am again, writing my piece of my mind.

Lately, life had been so so for me because nothing great had happen so far.
BUT, nothing more greater than finishing exams!! Yahoooo….. This is the time of year where you celebrate your freedom from your rushing lifestyle and due dates. However, doing nothing can kill most of us because we just used to our rushing lifestyle and for someone like me, I need a lot of stimulant in my life because I change and get bored too fast.

Whatever the feeling is about exams, this time is holy-days!!! We all need some time off from anything that we do no matter how we like the job- have time to sharpen your axe for more efficient trees cutting.

I will go back to where my life starts and for sure not the place my life ends! *wink* and it’s the fruit season! Uh huh, the great Durian, here I come! I can smell the smell of it now and I’ma sleep with it, sell it, eat it, vomit it out, and get sick from it!!

sign off,
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my new Face.

A year or so ago, I registered to a most used social network by worldwide monthly active users; Facebook!
It start as a trend-following since ALL of my friends are in there, and kinda loving it, so, I jump in and start my own Face.
Since then, my life never being the same again.
My breakfst, or my lunch is no more chicken with rice, but my Face.
I feel very incomplete if I didn't visit my Face, not sure why, but I just feel that way.

A few nights ago, a nightmare about my Face come to reality; it just not working as the usual. It made me waited for many hours and days because it says my account is not available at the moment, and advised to login again after a few hours.
Hours of waiting (and I hate waiting, really!), my Face haven't heal.

It is easier if I create a new account; no hustle bustle, since I am getting worried about my Face.
I was telling my housemates the other day, that I am thinking all the possibilities of my Face: the name, the pictures, the friends, and everything - whats going to happen to all that?!

My Face hates me since it didn't heal.
Thinking, am I being banned? for what reasons? or it just problem of the connection?
NO, tried to tackle all that, but it just my Face that have problems.

So, here am I blogging about my Face, and this gonna be the 1st blog I've posted on my new Face.
and thanks because accepting me in your list, again.
and for those who I decided not to add, sorry mate. *wink* *wink*.

poo-cating..meow meow..

Last weekend had been fun-filling weekend for me-went to Poo-cat for 5 days.
It’s the best time to breakaway just to prepare myself for the hectic life coming up since it’s almost the end of semester-with lotsa assignments and performing.
Well, at least I have a real reason to spend money and get out of my normal routine.

The best part of this all (unlike my UK trip) is the immigration.
They don't really care about what's the reasons you have until you end up in their airport as long you have visa, passport and money?
So, phew over there!

Before I went to Poo-Cat, there's a Tsunami alert all over the ASEAN countries but it really didn't stop me from going.
I don't even worry about much; earthquake, Tsunami, etc. I guess all my friends and family do all the worries for me.
I always hold this word when I am going to places: if you gonna die, you gonna die though you sleep at your very room!
Let not the death stopping you from seeing the world! Cuz if you really facing the death, you'll find out that ,'I should see more than I've seen'.
And, as you grow old with all the commitments and life, you have little opportunities to go around and since you still young, waste it!! ;)

Island hopping is the most dangerous and braves activity that I've tried when I am in Poo-Cat.
The wave is just enough to make you scream your heart out and thinking, 'I don't pay 2000bath for dying, right?' but it just FUN!

Due to annoying Tuk Tuk driver and massages girls along the streets and every angle of the island that always wanting to drive you everywhere and touch your body (;)), I did bought a T-Shirt saying, 'NO I DON'T WANT A F*?K'N TUK TUK SUIT OR MASSAGE THANK YOU VERY MUCH' at the back and the Thai version is on the front so that they more clear what I want!
It so happen when I went to center of Phuket Town and lost our way, well you hardly get lost when you ask the Tuk Tuk guys along the road sides, but they always refuse to tell you if you don't want them to send you.

I wonder that all Thai people don't really walk from places other than drive their motorbike and Tuk Tuk!
Even I asked the people from the streets how to get to my hotel, they kept saying, 'hotel…far…Tuk Tuk'.
Its very impossible its far since I walk from my hotel to the center like 15 minutes only and its not far AT ALL!!

In addition to the annoying of the Tuk Tuk guys, expected as a Thai is even more worst!
Do I look like Thai??!!
After they promoting the product to me saying 'Sawadeekap, bla bla bla... (in Thai)' I just reply them saying sorry I am not Thai. They straight away give me that look which I translate as, 'Fuck off you whore, you just a f*?k'n Thai that want to be white!!'. And they give me Thai to Thai service! What the…?
Well... I guess I need to accept that I look like real Asian which is not Chinese nor the fair skin guy that will hinder myself from get approach in Thai. Oh well…

Now I am back to my KL life bringing back the memories and the experiences from one more interesting place!
Where's next, keep an eye on me...

Confession Of A Shopaholic

Now is in the middle of Malaysian Mega Sales which is until 31st of August.
So most of Malaysian and tourist especially the Middle Eastern! taking this opportunity to shop their heart-out.
One week of experience in the working in shoes stores, I realize something that is VERY important which most of us (the buyers/shoppers) tend to take it for granted.
So, here I am sharing 10 of my views on the tips for the shoe-shoppers.

1. Take your time- never rush back home or because your friends/family are tired to buy. This will cause you to rush the assistant to get your shoes and remember that, at the peak hours there's gazillions of people in the stores. And remember that you are not the special one to be entertain 1st or priority goes to you. Sometimes, having 5 assistant in the stores is good enough, but the customers is more than this number can entertain, so, they have to juggle up with few customer at once.

2. Ask once- if you are being serve by one assistant, they'll be yours 'till you go/buy. Don't ask twice for the same shoes with a different assistant because it'll cause double request and this is WASTING time and energy!
3. Returnable goods- if your shoes are covered by certain period of time, change is good BUT don't feel like you are being cheated and start to shout at the assistant and change the shoes millions of times to make sure it is good. Remember people, shoes is not going to stay until you die and there's no lifetime guarantee , it'll damage by your UGLY feet.

4. Don't ask about 'shoppers common sense'- if you are shoppers, you should know that there's price tag for all goods display. So don't shout your out-of-tune voice to ask for the price and how much the discount is. I know its their (sales assistant) job, but there is more job that is 'important' they need to do like getting a shoes for you 'mom'!

5. Don't ask tedious questions- like : 'what is the differences between ALL this sandals/shoes?' OR 'since this shoes is display one and it's the last one, why don't you drop more the discount?!'. This two questions is simply SERIOUSLY RIDICULOUS!!!

6. Don't ask for shoes more than 3 at once!!- the sales assistant is not a robot and you just dunno how small the stores at the back. Moreover if they need to climb between two tall racks of shoes box. This is job is easy BUT don't take it for granted. They can fall from the stairs and may cut themselves because you want so many and need it FAST!

7. When drill are pulled down...- its not mean to kick you out of the stores but avoiding the outsider(:P) to come in. By this time, DECIDE people!! If you just feel not going to buy it, don't ask for more OR if you insist, MAKE SURE YOU BUY IT! (do you think it's easy to get your shoes at the back?!!)

8. 5 minutes before the closing time- it is the time for the workers to clean up and closing the accounts etc. And it is not the time to entertain you choosing the best outfit or shoes.

9. Don't damage the display- when you are trying the display, make sure (especially for shoes) you ask for 'shoe horn'. Don't push it if it didn't fit your big-foot. Ask for another size if it is impossible to fit in. if it is damaged, you will deny that you responsible for it then the assistant (whom are poor compare to you) have to pay for the damage!

10. Last but not least, don't lie- if you don't have money to buy the shoes, don't promise to come back after withdrawing the money and asking to put your shoes at the counter. The worse case is, after promising that, you come back after forever withdrawing money and when the shoes is being kept back at the rack, and you ask, 'where is my shoes?'. Expect this, 'I dunno. I can't recall which shoes you want'. And don't mad at them saying that because you're not the only customer.

Good luck to ALL of you Shopaholic!!!

Hush Hush...

YAY! Finally I got a job.
This is such an excited experience for me.
I never had an experience working at ANY stores/where before.
So, looking for a job based on no working experience before make it hard for me.
BUT, finally I manage to find one which is suitable for me: Hush Puppies.
First, I kinda scared to work.
I don't even do much work back home.
There, I need to follow orders and rules.
Listen to the supervisor and seniors.
Luckily, they are all good people but nosy people.
I've been asked some weird questions 30 minutes after I started.
What a people….
Other than that, they are helping me a lot how to find the right shoes at the right shelf.
As a trainee, I haven't familiar how to find the shoes as quick as I can. But I am coping.
Today (July 11th,2009) is the second day I'm working.
I am thinking to work for some time there.
I tried to find a good reason why do I want to work.
Hmm…
Maybe I want to keep busy and not thinking too much about stuff.
Maybe I wanna be tired so that I can sleep at night and don't have to take those pills anymore.
Maybe for the sake of trying.
Maybe wanna get an extra money for shopping and living.
Maybe I wanna prove to some people that I can stand on my own feet: pay for my own food, ticket, clothes, books, etc.

At the other side of the world, there is someone that is dear to my heart who looking a job.
And I know how important he got a job at this time of year.
I believe that he'll find what he's looking for.

So far, life is being a lil' bit hell here.
Fighting over the changing of the course.
Until today, I haven't heard anything about the letter yet.
But now I am working on to get a support from a few lecturers that I know thru social contact.
I hope it'll help me to change.

Yesterday, I got an email from a lecturer whom his class I've been following this semester.
He said, I am 50-50 student for his class and its up to me whether I want o stay or not.
He did mentioned about my English and my grammar when I am writing the article/news, how it's gonna get an average grade at the end of the course.
I know that my grammar is not perfect but I am here to make it better and I am not easily to let down.
I want to do it and I'll carry on with it.
Now, what I can do is to study the language harder than anyone else in the class.
I am expecting to be corrected in a hard way in the class by the lecturer.
Because he did warn me about it and I have to agree with it to be in the class and to not make a mistakes anymore in the future.

Now, what I need to do is to stay sane, patient, calm, wise, and having faith in what I do.
Thanks to Him for giving me such a good family and friends around me that always be there with me in my sleepless night and when I am the lowest valley of my disappointments.
They are the one that said to me, 'You'll be OK and everything is going to be all right''.
May His blessing be upon ya'll.

2nd day….

12 days of my LIFE!!

Two weeks ago, I kept on counting the days to over so that I can experience the time of my life.
Now, its over.
Time really fly away. now its ended.
BUT, experience the experience on my own, and seeing it with my own eyes is just something that make me think that life is so much to explore.
I develop a new interest such as coin/money collector.
Yes, I am officially money boi now, literally.
So, don’t hesitate to give me your money, yeah?

Spending time with my friends in UK just awesome.
They brought me to see what English usually do.
Other than tea time in the afternoon, they also love to watch play or musical.
So, I went for a few of them:
~ Stomp
~ RENT
~ La Cage aux Folles
~ Shakespeare’s: merchant of Venice

That is the best things that I’ve done there. And I am thinking that I wanna join one of the drama in Malaysia. Well, for this semester, I did register for Basic Modern Theater (Acting). So, based on the experience that I went thru in UK, hope it’ll fit the grades.
I thank God that all are fall into places. Once,I did said that I want to change my course and wanting to do English, then this trip make me more interest in it because I did went to see Shakespeare and did visited his birth place. Experiencing it on my own just something that I need now since life is so unpredictable. Did bought couple of books for the literature, and get bargain. Compilation of ALL Shakespeare’s works in one book with only £1.99 which is only RM10 something. I am so lucky!! (Was thinking to buy some more and sell it with high price to the English student. Hehe)

First four days in UK, I spent it just like any tourist here in the UK. Start with drama in immigration desk. The lady in blue kept in the waiting line for an hour because she don’t get why I can get to UK. Then she look thru my stuff on my bags. Or maybe she just want to see me longer since I am cute, huh? I guess so!
The next day, drove to the place that now I can canceled out from my list of ‘things that I want to do before I die’: Stonehenge!! It is a day before a solstice phenomena happen. But, being there just an awesome feeling. God is good!
Oxford is the next stop.
Every seconds I am there, my jaw kept on dropping. It just mesmerize me so much (well, it is my favorite Uni in the entire world). Never thought that I will go there this soon. Compare to Cambridge which I went a day before flying back to KL, that place didn’t wow me as much as Oxford. But it still awesome though.
London for several times. It just make me remember KL. Big city center and busy. But the different between both is Londoner is more friendly (believe me people). Watched Transformer (the biggest movie theater I’ve ever went to) & Stomp. Both are awesome.

After touring like tourist, I spent my time for a week like a local. Went to Worcester(you pronounce it wrong). There is lotsa spelling of English that you silent the letter. Unless there is H after the C, then you pronounce it as ‘chester’. Worcester is pronounced as Wooster.
Try this one: Gloucester.
And this one: Warwick(this is the most ridiculous pronunciation of all)
That is one of the places that I went to.

Thru out the one week being a local, I found out that I like Worcester so much. It is near to Birmingham and there is few Uni that I can do study when time and situation is allowing. Believe!

There is so much that I do there and experience it again just something that I would die for.
The trip opened my eyes and mind that something beautiful out there and waiting for me to explore it. Just one thing for sure, be brave to take the chance, it may not come twice and life is more than waiting.

what’s next?

(July 2nd,2009)

Choices Part II

Some of you may know that I want to change my course from Science with Education to TESL in this coming semester.

So, today I made a move for it to happen.

As a start, I went to PTPTN whom providing me with study loan all this 2 years, to ask them about my loan after I’ve been approved to change the course. They gave me some shit that I don’t want to hear but have to swallow. I need to close the account for the previous courses and need to pay ALL of the loans that I’ve received from them to start a new account for a new course.

It’s been 2 years now, if my calculation is correct, I am suppose to owing them about RM10G. Yes, 10G!!

But, as I think and think, I can close the account, and not continue for loan from them(PTPTN), in fact I can get other loan like Yayasan Sabah or anything like that.

Oh, before I forgot, before I went and asked PTPTN, I did emailed my lecturer whom also the one that in charge with my batch. She is a great woman I can say. Nothing much coming out of that emailing, yet, but I believe it will work out.

I hope by talking to her, she can talk to my faculty’s Dean of Academic about my problem(as you can call it).

All of this can happen, ONLY after I’ve been approved to change my course. If not, I gotta carry on with what I do now, and maybe hoping that there’s miracle coming out of it. Well, miracle needs to work on though. And hoping I will not send home because of bad grades.

After what happen today in the PTPTN, I’ve been thinking about how many problems and obstacles I have in my life the whole 2 years I’m studying in UM. Which part that I done wrong? What I am lack on getting those grades? I know I am not dump, if I am, I will not be here today. But, I did study, but it keep coming back to the place that I don’t want to be. Am I not putting my whole strength in it? Or am I just someone that not being granted with ability to study what am I doing now? What is it!!???

Hope for someone that is reading this, please, if you ever pray, or maybe just wish for me, please pray that I can make this work, so that I can do what I want and having wisdom to carry on with decision and life making.

Other than that, I am thankful to my friend, Josh, he is such an awesome buddy that I know. He also taught me a lots about life and reality. More than that, he accept me in his life just as I am, though knowing who am I and what I had accomplish (well you know, with the bad grades and dunno how to do anything).

I also thankful with a great family. My dad just an awesome dad and always supporting me with what I want to do. Instead of saying just carry on with what you have now and not complicating your life and mine, he said to me, I dunno which best for you because you yourself know what you want, and chase for it.

In the other hand, my mom is a worrier. She worry to much about his boi and kinda not understand why I want to change.

I am doing this for my future and for their future. I don’t want them to get the news that their son that they put their hope in being send home because of bad grades.

‘Till nest entry,

P/S- 10 more days!!!

(written yesterday)

(June 9th,2009)

Choices

‘Gil, life is not about black and white, life is always grey’, Volvo said to me 2 years ago.

Looking back to it, yes it is true. Nothing in this life is white or black. Once you choose it, you let it be what you want no matter what people around you say about it. Because, at the end of the day, it’s your choices and all you can do is make what you think is right into reality. Though, at some point, the decision that you made might be turn out to be something that you don’t expect it to be, but let you carry on, and learn from it. Someone that is successful is not determine how high they can go, but how good they pick themselves up from the failures.

This week is about choices to me. Choices that I need to make for my future. I realise that I am not good at something especially on what I am studying now. I like teaching so much because it brings out the best of me. But when it comes to sciences, OMG, I am the most passive student in the class. And sometimes I feel that I am the blondes boi in the room, because I have that face but not that brain, which is useless. Looking at the results that I get, hmmm….I really need to change to something that I love, LOVE to do, like English. Though my English is not f**king perfect, but at least it is WAY much better than my sciences. BUT, my problem is, I already coming to my 3rd year and to change, MY GOD, its gonna take me forever to get the scroll!! But if I didn’t, the chances that I will be kicked out from campus is HIGH.

My family also counting on me to do the best in study because they believe that being teacher can change my family’s life, which is true. If I change, my parent might not like it because I have to extend a few more years than the estimate time and delay my 1st payment as a teacher. But it is more heartbreaking when they got the news that their beloved son whom they think is clever, being kicked out from school. NO, that’s not gonna happen either!

WHAT SHOULD I DO?!

There’s so much thing that I need to take consider now to make my choices. But one thing for sure, I thankful that I have people around me that believe in me and wanting the best for me also never want to giving up in me though they know I am kinda slow and not that clever. Thanks to you!

Jesus, I pray to you, to take this wheel from my hand, and let your glory shine thru me.

‘Till next entry.

P/S-12 days to go

(June 6th,2009)

GILer Ka Aku...(Am I Crazy)

WOW…

It’s not something that everyone expect from me to write at the first entry for my blog.

My internet since last night ’till this mornig is really sucks and I am so pissed off with it!

But now, it’s OK, I am also. I think my moody is depends on something to make it change. This is what you called extrinsic motivation. Depending too much on my environment and ‘rewards’ that I might get if do some stuff or not doing it. Internet makes me happy because I have something to do rather than doing nothing. Boringness can kill me!

I received a few news that shocked me, but I kinda expect it from that person. Something that might scared people away from him. Just like him, I also facing the same stuff, and you dunno how hard it is to deal with it. It is part of life where we need to make decision on something that WILL decide what we are tomorrow. I wish him a very good luck in choosing his life’s pathway and hope he make the wisest decision so that he never regret anything. I did try to contact him, but I guess he is just being himself, full of ego and closure to others.

There are also things that come up to my mind today (internet took long time to repair which makes me think lot longer than usual) which I think I need to stand on my own mind and tell people that ‘This is my decision about it!’. Without have to struggle the lie and the excuses anymore. At some point, I like attentions, but too much of it, NO NO! I guess, I need to stand up for what I believe in and if there’s someone that is not agree of me, FO!

I have no specialty like other blogger whom blog for their trips (not now, I am such a broke student) or teaching people how to do photoshops (like KCD), what I love is: pour out what I have in my lil’ tiny head.

Next blog will be better than this and it’s going to be something fruitful.

‘Till next bloggie…

P/s-17 days to go

(Jube 2nd, 2009)

Always the first time

I never thought that I want and can start a blog before.

I did read and follow a few of my buddy’s blogs and checking out what they have to say about their trips, life, dramas, and also some good tips provided.

But, it just something that I am not passionate about, before.

Or maybe I am just to shy, too scared, or too secretive to share my thoughts and my life to others.

But, I think, 1st of June is the start for something new- I am here now writing a bloggie!

This is going to be a start for a new bloggie from me and hoping that I can improve my language by writing it.

It doesn’t matter whether people follow me or not bother to read my thoughts here, I’ma still gonna write in his chest.

’till next entry.

P/s- 18 days to go.

(June 1st,2009)