Brunel. British. Brixton. & Bullsh*ts.

So I started my course in uni now. Officially done for the first week. That's the reason even the title sounded like a academic paper writing.

Brunel.

Wonderful campus. Mixture of nationalities & background. This is the closest I can get to feel like home. However, the pressure is on! My class is twice a week for 3 hours per session. There are part-time students & full-time students. So you're meeting almost half of a different people every time you enter the class. Back in Malaysia, I thought I am confident & well spoken young man. My classmates are like black hole, sucking anything that pass their way including my light! I used to shine in education classes before but now, I am just invisible & timid little soul trapped with this amazing creatures filled with glowing experiences. Though I acknowledge Dr. Angelo's opinion about get into the field for couple of years & then go for MA to gain some experiences so that you won't be a parasite in the classroom, I still go for MA. I am going to be a parasite for some time. On a better note, with all these experienced teachers surrounding me, I can learn from them & even visit their schools to get a better idea. And a note for me, whatever that I do, being confident is the key. (More news on Brunel in the future blogs)

British.

Can be very annoying at times but they are friendly by nature (mostly). Undeniably, this is one of the greatest country in the world & Malaysian do look up to here. It is funny that they think they are not & think Asian are better. I guess, the grasses are greener on the side of the fence. And oh, haven't mingle around with the Brits that much. Soon I guess.

Brixton.

This is my new neighbourhood. It is so ghetto (not as much as before though) that it makes H&M looks like a corner shop. In the meantime in KL, we lined up to get into the newly build H&M in Lot 10.
The journey to campus from here is a bit long & cold. I have to spend at least 2 hours to/from campus. That's the downside of living here but the city is just 15 minutes away. School is twice a week, and I have 5 days not going to campus, so I guess it's a good bargain to live here.

Bullsh*ts.

I love the chilly weather and sometimes a great sun shows herself for a day or two. Now I know how precious sunshine can be. Back in Malaysia, sunny days should be avoided if you still wish to be sane. I guess it's not the same sun since it gives you a different kind of feeling being under it.

Overall, I am thankful to be here with just a few steps from finding my dreams & everything that is being given to me so far. I'm gonna work harder than I've ever been.

Prayer is what I need from you guys. :)

xoxo

brunelboy

Five Winters.

Let It Snow on Me!

Here I am, writing my blog entry against the neon-based KL city and the moon light.

Everything is bright here, just as bright as my future now.

Though, 5 years ago I don't see any dreams coming true and I don't even remember dreaming about anything.

Then, my life was a joke.

Failing when it comes to studying.

Loser when it comes to friends.

Naive when it comes to dating.

Broke when it comes to money.

I wasn't in the best shape of myself, physically and mentally.

Super skinny.

Lacks of social life.

Bed was my bestie.

My right hand was my pleasure.

Church was a living hell.

Today, my life still a joke for me, but in the LOL kinda moment. Happy.

Failing makes me realise what's my strength are, which I am following starting on 8/10/12.

Money isn't a problem anymore as it never being so important.

I have a lot of people that are close to me & love me just the way I am.

I also have met people who hated me for being who I am.

Along the way, the jerk becomes your bestie but the bestie becomes the worse memory.

And more to come.

I have been through hell and back.

Been rejected many times.

Been accepted for the wrong reasons. etc.

Today, I can't express how happy & proud I am of myself.

All the mistakes, a**holes, & cries are my northern star to point me home.

Home where I can just be myself, doing the thing I enjoy, & giving back.

People said, now you open a new chapter, close the old one.

I say, revise the old one for a better experience in the future.

I know I would make more mistakes, miscalculate, being misunderstood, meeting more a**holes, backstabber, lovers, friends, & living happily.

Today is my convocation. For once last year, I thought I would never finish this degree but I prove myself wrong & rebuke my doubt because I can be whatever I wanna be as long I am willing to.

For that, I would like to thank you every person that I met along the way these 5 years. EVERYONE of you makes me who I am today.

The next time I am writing is from the land of the Queen!

xoxo

gradgilly.