When I look around the space I am occupying,
with the people around me,
with the constant frown, sadness, noises, fake
I somehow lost in this jungle of reality that I created myself,
and sick of it!
At a point,
I want to start it all over again, fresh,
do it better.
At a point,
I think to myself that I have no values at all in this dream of my childhood.
Feels like I am just a projection from someone who is dreaming,
useless,
and just being one of the actor in someone else's movie.
At this point,
I was thinking about;
what if I die this very minute??
would my friend cry??
would my family be disappointed??
would that someone know that all my love goes to him??
would I die happy??
would all the people that I cared gonna think of me in 14 days after this very minute?
What values that I have to this people??
I dunno.
the noises around me makes me deaf.
the silence that surrounds me makes me nervous,
blocking me from listening to my own heart beats.
I want some assurances, and re-assurances in my life.
My life would be very different, if you didn't exist. I often think of all the experiences, joys, laughs, and sadness we've shared. I, for one, would miss you tremendously, if you were gone.
ReplyDeleteYour family wouldn't be disappointed, they would be devastated. Your friends would think of you with affection and would miss the times they laughed with you. You've touched the hearts of many people with your sunshine. Don't you ever forget that.
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